Related: We will be hosting our first Disability Conference this fall in Minneapolis.

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Intro: Letter from John Piper
Part 1: Why We Got Married
Part 2: Learning Contentment in Suffering
Part 3: A Daily Disabled Life

He wanted us to listen to his new song, that would be on his EP which was releasing in a few months. We were at home, cozy in the living room. We helped Ian onto the couch and Caleb started the recording. Just a few notes in, "Is this song about heaven?" I asked. The sound, the feeling and the solemnity said it.

"Yea," Caleb grinned sadly.

I braced my heart for what I knew would be three minutes of five years flooding into my mind. From Ian in the ICU with a blood-draining tu…

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Intro: Letter from John Piper
Part 1: Why We Got Married
Part 2: Learning Contentment in Suffering

“Ian, you really need to pick your nose,” I said, as I started doing it for him. He pulled his head away.

“Thatʼs weird and gross,” he said.

Iʼll admit it — that is weird and gross that I would willingly help Ian in that way. But when youʼre used to doing everything for someone, that action is nothing.

Ian says that itʼs how much I love him that makes me do weird things like that. I canʼt say that I would do it if he were healthy, though. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

A Daily Life

Weʼre not sure what our life would look like if Ian could walk, or drive hims…

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Intro: Letter from John Piper
Part 1: Why We Got Married
Part 3: A Daily Disabled Life

We were riding in our car, the quick two-hour trip to my sisterʼs house. I, in particular, was struggling with our lot that morning, a fairly common struggle for me. I asked Ian if he is often tempted to curse God, a question that may have put me dangerously close to Jobʼs wife:

“Do you still hold fast your integrity? Curse God and die” (Job 2:9).

Ian, who to me is just like that tree planted by streams of water (Psalm 1), answered easily, “No, because God has been nothing but good to me.”

A Strength Not Our Own

“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever si…

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Intro: Letter from John Piper
Part 2: Learning Contentment in Suffering
Part 3: A Daily Disabled Life

“You will never regret loving this much.”

John was there, watching our wedding, just a few months after his dear wife had passed. She lived with cancer for too many years, and for each day in each year, John was her lover and her caregiver. He knew what we were getting into that day. He knew the costs. I looked at him sitting on the old, wooden benches, without her next to him. The two little wooden birds that he whittled sat on our cake, on top of his love inscription. And his spoken words after meant so much, reminding me that love like this is unable to produce regret.

Unlike …

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